Opening up your anxiety disorder will help you.
Opening up your anxiety disorder will help you.
I just want to say anxiety sucks and it's real but it will not define me, and don't let it define you
Hey guys um I apologize for like the jankyness that I'm looking right now. You know I don't think jankyness is really even a word but I'm feeling pretty janky right now.
Just took off my face masks and I see in is like bright red and super shiny because I was try new moisturizer today.
The air right now is super dry so my skin is drying out like crazy but super JD just wanted to make a quick video, and one word not really has done up or prepared.
It's normal because I was watching my skincare video and I realized it looks really like an ad or something just really fake as a lot of people pointed out.
That's because I just over prepared going into it. I don't have a script or anything but I definitely took a couple takes to do it and I really thought about my words before I'd said it so it sounded really just contrived and fake.
Anyway what I want to talk about today is something I have lived with my whole life and that is an anxiety disorder.
I remember when I was in seventh grade I'd get these really horrible stomachaches every morning before school.
Seventh grade was about the worst time of my life. I was just going through a lot and changing schools. I mean going into junior high and I would get these horrible stomachaches, and my mom took me to doctors.
They never really could tell what it was like anyway. so I have these stomachaches pretty much every day usually in the morning from seventh grade through high school.
In college I decided to go to psychiatrist because my mom recommended it and there I was diagnosed with severe anxiety which I didn't even know I had a whole life that was actually causing the stomachaches.
I went on lexapro for my anxiety and mild depression. But for me it just turned me into a zombie. I didn't feel like myself. I wasn't having panic attacks because I wasn't panicking about anything. I wasn't feeling. I just literally was like a zombie and I'm not this isn't a video bashing medications or people who have to take them every day because I know my mom takes them and she wouldn't be able to function without them.
I know that people give a bad rep for medications but really especially when it's like something for your mental health, people just have this horrible stigma about mental health.
It's all on your head. Guess what it's real, it's a chemical imbalance and sometimes you need a medication. What works for one person might not work for another.
I was on lexapro and I just decided to go off of it and I wantermy wife back.
In the time I was on lexapro I gained like 20 pounds. I just didn't have any Drive or desire to do anything or be anybody.
When I went off it I finally felt like I had my life again even though I now have panic attacks again. But it's something I learned to deal with. I do have medication that I can take when I'm having a panic attack, but I don't have to take it every day.
It's definitely hard. It's hard being in this trap where you're supposed to present a perfect image of yourself while being a completely imperfect person.
I just really feel like there's this stigma in life against mental health and I also feel like in the fashion world. In modeling specifically you're supposed to be like this perfect image people want to be and your life should look so glamorous, but it isn't. Like my life can be glamorous but there's also a lot of parts that aren't so pretty.
The point of this rambling mess is I struggle every day with my anxiety and it has held me back from so many opportunities in life.
I feel like and every day I'm just fighting it and to everyone else who's fighting men or demons just find what works for you.
Go to a doctor and I don't know I'm still looking for the answer.
I don't have the magic cure. I don't have the words to say to help with anxiety.
I just know what works for me, listening to Fleetwood Mac, the song gypsy on repeat that's like my go-to.
Maybe find a song for you that helps when you're feeling like the world spinning out of control.
I call my mom that always helps. Just find something to anchor yourself to because I think a lot of my anxiety at least comes from feeling out of control.
I get it all the time on planes especially because I'm not in control. I'm not the one driving or when someone else is driving. Situations where things are out of my control.
I just want to say anxiety sucks and it's real but it will not define me, and don't let it define you because I promise you if you're watching this no matter where you're watching it if it's on your computer like 3:00 in the morning that's mainly how I watch youtube videos least.
It's gonna be okay and things that you doesn't define you and find what works for you and don't let people try to minimize your disorder.
It is real and it is valid but it does not define you.
I just want to say anxiety sucks and it's real but it will not define me, and don't let it define you
Hey guys um I apologize for like the jankyness that I'm looking right now. You know I don't think jankyness is really even a word but I'm feeling pretty janky right now.
Just took off my face masks and I see in is like bright red and super shiny because I was try new moisturizer today.
The air right now is super dry so my skin is drying out like crazy but super JD just wanted to make a quick video, and one word not really has done up or prepared.
It's normal because I was watching my skincare video and I realized it looks really like an ad or something just really fake as a lot of people pointed out.
That's because I just over prepared going into it. I don't have a script or anything but I definitely took a couple takes to do it and I really thought about my words before I'd said it so it sounded really just contrived and fake.
Anyway what I want to talk about today is something I have lived with my whole life and that is an anxiety disorder.
I remember when I was in seventh grade I'd get these really horrible stomachaches every morning before school.
Seventh grade was about the worst time of my life. I was just going through a lot and changing schools. I mean going into junior high and I would get these horrible stomachaches, and my mom took me to doctors.
They never really could tell what it was like anyway. so I have these stomachaches pretty much every day usually in the morning from seventh grade through high school.
In college I decided to go to psychiatrist because my mom recommended it and there I was diagnosed with severe anxiety which I didn't even know I had a whole life that was actually causing the stomachaches.
I went on lexapro for my anxiety and mild depression. But for me it just turned me into a zombie. I didn't feel like myself. I wasn't having panic attacks because I wasn't panicking about anything. I wasn't feeling. I just literally was like a zombie and I'm not this isn't a video bashing medications or people who have to take them every day because I know my mom takes them and she wouldn't be able to function without them.
I know that people give a bad rep for medications but really especially when it's like something for your mental health, people just have this horrible stigma about mental health.
It's all on your head. Guess what it's real, it's a chemical imbalance and sometimes you need a medication. What works for one person might not work for another.
I was on lexapro and I just decided to go off of it and I wantermy wife back.
In the time I was on lexapro I gained like 20 pounds. I just didn't have any Drive or desire to do anything or be anybody.
When I went off it I finally felt like I had my life again even though I now have panic attacks again. But it's something I learned to deal with. I do have medication that I can take when I'm having a panic attack, but I don't have to take it every day.
It's definitely hard. It's hard being in this trap where you're supposed to present a perfect image of yourself while being a completely imperfect person.
I just really feel like there's this stigma in life against mental health and I also feel like in the fashion world. In modeling specifically you're supposed to be like this perfect image people want to be and your life should look so glamorous, but it isn't. Like my life can be glamorous but there's also a lot of parts that aren't so pretty.
The point of this rambling mess is I struggle every day with my anxiety and it has held me back from so many opportunities in life.
I feel like and every day I'm just fighting it and to everyone else who's fighting men or demons just find what works for you.
Go to a doctor and I don't know I'm still looking for the answer.
I don't have the magic cure. I don't have the words to say to help with anxiety.
I just know what works for me, listening to Fleetwood Mac, the song gypsy on repeat that's like my go-to.
Maybe find a song for you that helps when you're feeling like the world spinning out of control.
I call my mom that always helps. Just find something to anchor yourself to because I think a lot of my anxiety at least comes from feeling out of control.
I get it all the time on planes especially because I'm not in control. I'm not the one driving or when someone else is driving. Situations where things are out of my control.
I just want to say anxiety sucks and it's real but it will not define me, and don't let it define you because I promise you if you're watching this no matter where you're watching it if it's on your computer like 3:00 in the morning that's mainly how I watch youtube videos least.
It's gonna be okay and things that you doesn't define you and find what works for you and don't let people try to minimize your disorder.
It is real and it is valid but it does not define you.
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